July 3, 2012 · 8:54 am
What can I say, this is my summer to enjoy. My children started at sleep away camp 4 summers ago. Honestly the 1st summer I was to consumed with whether the kids were enjoying/having a good time or not. The 2nd summer, I had it a little easier — but my sister-in-law had been going through chemo so I travelled out to help her a few times, so it was not a totally relaxing summer (no complaints though, I was happy to go and help). Then of course last summer was my turn…and needless to say, 0% relaxation was involved. Chemo, my Mom, and other family issues made for a summer I never want to repeat (though the kids enjoyed camp). So when it came time to think about what I wanted from this summer there were a few different scenarios.
1st – I wanted the kids to have a great and stress free summer….With nothing to worry about….CHECK
2nd – I want everyone to be healthy and happy…CHECK CHECK
3rd – I want to relax and do what I want, when I want and how I want….CHECK CHECK CHECK (so far)…but this last has lead to a small issue….
When I was young, I remember hearing stories about relatives (usually my grandparents siblings) had been taken by CONSUMPTION. It all seemed so common, and I could nt really understand what it was they were talking about. I gathered what they were saying was that CONSUMPTION could kill – and often did.
We since my children have left, I have consumed massive (yes I mean Massive) quantities of food…I have been eating with abandon (an odd old saying, but seems fitting). And as I got on the scale this morning…I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE….FROM CONSUMPTION OBVIOUSLY!!!!
I am back, and I missed writing to you all, I am going out for a walk now (because won’t that take off a good 5 lbs?) Health and Happiness aside, I really plan on enjoying this summer…but maybe I will get out more and consume less OR NOT!
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January 28, 2012 · 4:51 pm
It is rare, if ever, that I have been happy with a photograph of myself. The photo above is the closest I have ever come to being happy about the way I look. Especially after the year I have had! I am thankful for all of the comments and compliments I have been given on it. I have even taken steps to get a copy so that I can have it framed and displayed in my home. Seeing the abundance of great and the flowing rolls at my waist gnaws at me, but overall I am happy with it!
When I see myself in the mirror, I don’t see the same individual who was there before my illness. And while friends and family tell me that what I see is not what they see; I have still felt like the lead in a Hans Christian Anderson story — you know the one about the duck.
Recently, I was introduced to a woman who has just been diagnosed. We have spoken several times over the last few weeks, and her story has touched me. She is further along than I was, and her chemo regime will be more stringent than mine; but I believe she will be fine in the end. I think she sees that now, as well. Her voice today was much calmer and more sure – which was a relief. I was concerned that her fears could become an obstacle for her, and could cloud her capacity to gather the information she needed.
She told me of some good news that she had gotten. Awesome, I thought! Then she wanted to know about my weight gain. She had asked me this several times during our talks. I told her honestly that I have “packed on the pounds (30 to be exact). I know it sounds weird that I gained weight during chemo but I did…Anyway, I know that much of what I said was helpful, but she was still focussed on the weight gain. So here is what I said. “If it is weight gain you want to focus on – you can. But focus on the fact that after you are done with all of your treatments and healthy again…you will have a new project…getting back in shape. Keep thinking about the future and what you need to do. Because no matter how you look at it…you are looking at your future – and that is a good thing. But when you have completed it all (the treatments I mean), don’t waste your time (like I have done) being unhappy with what you see in the mirror.
Because what you see is ALIVE AND WELL..and looking good in a photo or two will happen again!
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